panic attack in action

i went down the courthouse between classes today to transfer the title of my car into my name. so that's done. and that's weird.

anyways, since it (shockingly) took barely any time, i had some to kill. i went over to the new starbucks across the street, which i'd never been to before. i sat there, drank coffee, had a muffin, and read some Emerson. i felt like such a badass. it's sort of what i imagine (or hope) i'll be doing next year... sitting in a downtown coffeeshop reading.

and to achieve that end, i'll be mailing all my grad school applications tomorrow. i'm absolutely freaking out. i've been running so late on this whole application process that i feel as if i have a million things left to do before i can be finished. my first drafts of my curriculum vitae and my statement of purpose were pretty much crap - and i've only just finished the second edits. thank god for drs. b and d - their help is basically the only thing keeping me from having an all out manic episode (ya like that shout out, ashbash?).

in just a little while, i'll be meeting with the other phi mu seniors to write the ode! i'm so excited, but i really wish it was another time. i mean, it couldn't be - xmas social is this saturday because this is the last week of school. SO WEIRD. anyway, after the ode-ing, ashlee and i are meeting to make our powerpoint presentation for experimental methods. and then i'll be reading some more Emerson and writing a two page response to give to dr. mayo, who i have been disappointing all year. so this one has to be good.

in case you didn't catch it by that last paragraph, school is completely swamping me. i have enough to do without worrying about the rest of my life. oh geez. you should really call me friday night: i'll be the happiest you've ever seen.